There is a time and place for everything.
A time for believing.
A place for hiding the fears.
A time for growing up.
A place for keeping safe the child within.
A time for letting go.
A place for preserving hope.

... the most difficult part is being true to yourself...

The scent of yesterday....
the freshness of the newborn Love
the soft touch of the wings of hope
the trust
the faith
the feeling of indestructibility
of finally belonging...

Where has it all gone?

Just one day like any other given day.

Minutes flowing downwards like sand in a sand-glass.

Impressions passing us by.

Hopes and lost loves tenderly touching our souls as they continue their journey to neverland.

Every breath pushing us farther from each other.

Looking back to realize it was never real...

For the last couple of days I have been away in a (biz) trip. I didn`t carry the laptop with me, precisely in order to be able to focus more on all that I did there.

I left with my direct superior. We traveled in a hurry, the road was long, the traffic was rather messy. We didn`t have any time to spend sight-seeing or shopping, as I would have wanted. I couldn`t convince him under any circumstance to go together for a walk. I noticed this with most men.... they are terrified when they hear that they have to walk... or maybe it`s just my bad luck to meet only this type of men? :)

The "business" wasn`t much... we went to a fair, prospected the market, introduced our services... it was my first experience in this field, rather interesting. Discussed with different people, shared opinions, learned how to smile to a stranger... and even got a job proposal from one of the people I was hoping to turn into our customer :)

All in all, it was a good experience. But the best part is that I got to know his other "self". The real one, I guess. The funny, friendly, charming self. The detached and relaxed one. The part I sensed he had, but almost never showed. The part that disappeared immediately the next day when we met back at work :) Nonetheless... I am absolutely pleased with my "discovery" and I`m looking forward to another biz trip together :)

Nowhere to go and hide from all the incertitudes, from all the doubts that are hunting me. I turn my head and see a deep forest of "what if...?". I look around me and feel trapped. No guiding light, not a sparkle of hope. I run in circles and hurt myself to invincible walls. I`d scream but there is no one to really hear me. Questions and more questions battling in my mind like armies of soldiers. No time to rest, got to keep on trying. Trying to do.... what?


... to dare, to fight, to unchain myself. Maybe in another lifetime...

... to stay, when all you really want is to go far far away.
... to cherish memories forever encrusted in your soul.
... to build in your mind the picture of what could have been.
... to treasure the traces of that single kiss that was never meant to be.
... to dream.
... to wait.
... to hope.

Is it Love?

It was his love song to her. Ever since that summer, it`s been my love song to him. And it will always be - it`s like they say: the most beautiful love stories are the ones you`ve never lived or accomplished...



Kayahan - Ask Hikayesi

Ours is a love story/ A bit like a black'n white movie. / Tears, hope and lust, /Ours is a bit like a flame...
Ours is a love song / A bit like a black'n white movie. /Like water and flame, (or) rose and prickle / Ours is a bit like a novel...
These roses are for you / This heart is for us. /Never feel sad and cry /You (shall) smile at all times...
Ours is a love song / A bit like a black'n white movie. /A bit like getting out to the light /From the sad autumn doors...
How beautiful were all what we have lived? / How beautiful huh? /Now neither you nor me can find those days (gone) /I think sometimes and say /"Itoo have made mistakes!!" /Both of us failed to realise the value of somethings.
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We used to remember and laugh about the first day we met, /You used to ask me what you were wearing that day? / I never could remember... /I do now...
Our eyes met and we started.. / Just like in the movies!!!
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