Love Letter  

Posted by ~* ♥ Fallen Angel ♥ *~ in , ,

I need to leave you because I realized that I could not live without you...

... I need to leave you. I need to get away from you and remind myself how to be self-sufficient.

I used to believe that in life one could only trust himself and should not show any sign of vulnerability to anyone. And then you came along and showed me that it is okay to be frightened sometimes, that one does not need to win all the time, that the insecureness and doubtfulness are normal human traits that we carry along as baggages inherited from the previous generations.

You showed me that the barriers and high walls behind which I had safely hidden the feelings cortege could be demolished piece by piece. That openness could bring so much more, if it wasn`t mistaken for exposure.

You taught me that I could lose any trace of sadness or loneliness in your arms. That there I could feel protected as I had never felt before...

And now I know that if these were ever taken away from me, I wouldn`t know how to go on. If one day you decided to leave, I would be lost in a world that I could never adapt to. If at a certain point this futile life decided that your character should leave the stage.... what would become of me then?

So... you see... I need to leave you because I could not live without you...

Claudio Baglioni - Questo piccolo, grande amore

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6 echoes

Technodoll  

That is a strange view on love :-/

I'm so happy to have finally found my shelter, my soulmate... I have no fears he will leave me because I know he cannot live without me, either.

Are you not feeling that balance in your life?...

February 13, 2008 6:09 AM
Jojo  

Love is very powerful. Be careful!

February 13, 2008 9:53 AM
~* ♥ Fallen Angel ♥ *~  

@ Technodoll
Of course it`s a strange point of view. Otherwise you`d have no reasons to wonder and come back here for more :)))))
I believe that my fear reasides in the fact that my mom died so early and ever since I have felt that all my loved ones would all end up by deserting me one way or the other... But that`s probably not it. I might just be nuts. Simple as that :)

@Jojo
What shoudl I be careful about?... Please expand the idea...

February 13, 2008 11:19 AM
~* ♥ Fallen Angel ♥ *~  

@ Technodoll
Of course it`s a strange point of view. Otherwise you`d have no reasons to wonder and come back here for more :)))))
I believe that my fear reasides in the fact that my mom died so early and ever since I have felt that all my loved ones would all end up by deserting me one way or the other... But that`s probably not it. I might just be nuts. Simple as that :)

@Jojo
What shoudl I be careful about?... Please expand the idea...

February 13, 2008 11:19 AM
Technodoll  

I'd come back to visit you no matter what your ideas are, you're quite entertaining as it is! LOL

So sorry about your mom passing away when you were so young... I cannot imagine how that must have been for you.

(hugs)

February 14, 2008 4:48 AM
~* ♥ Fallen Angel ♥ *~  

@Technodoll
Thanks, dear!....

February 14, 2008 8:42 PM

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