My Secret Life  

Posted by ~* ♥ Fallen Angel ♥ *~ in ,

I personally believe that we all have, more or less, secret lives. Or, in other words, secret dreams about the life we would like to lead. Parallel dimensions created by the disappointments of reality, by the feeling of not belonging to the "here and now".

Probably most of the time we build the virtual continuation of a relationship we have had with a person that is no longer in our life. I don`t think that I would ever admit this if we were to discuss the subject face to face, but I sometimes imagine that my mom (who died almost 11 years ago) is still with me, and I share with her all my worries and hopes. I sometimes imagine what turn would my life had taken if she hadn`t died and I try to fully live those moments. But the truth is that I will never know what it would have been like.

It`s probably almost the same with a lost lover or someone with which "it wasn`t meant to be". You can just close your eyes and imagine how the future together would have been like. Maybe you are already doing this. Maybe , despite the fact that you are well aware that there will never be a way back, you still carry the hope that, who knows?, maybe someday.....

I know I do!

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Technodoll  

Hmm... not sure about others but I do try to connect my dream life with my real one - seems more accomplished this way. Daydreams only enhance the whole picture and paint the future, while flashbacks are the foundation that hold the house up. But that's just me :-)

January 12, 2008 1:31 PM
mesajinsticla  

Me too :(

January 12, 2008 2:52 PM
Faerydae  

There are different levels of this "secret life"... There are people who just dream, from time to time, about how their life would have been like if... - and there are also people who developpe another intrinsic world, or reality. It is hard to try to explain such things, because this kind of experiences may vary widely; somehow, they are related to, but distinct from most other types of mental and empathic connection. The fact is that I understand them and I would never call them pathological or something like this. For me, they are just alternate perspectives, which can be lived distinctively (in this case, they are, in deed, "secret lifes", as you said), or they can be mixed with the real life. But in both cases, THEY EXIST.

January 12, 2008 11:48 PM
sky  

Namaste' Fallen angel why do you just imagine your mom is there? SHE IS, I KNOW she is, she is there when you feel anger, jealousy or anything else in your life, she is a part of you, her energy still exists with yours,and surrounding you even NOW as I type. She embraces you. Talk away to her still, like you always have is my advice, it's not crazy it just is. We are all energy and that never dies physically. I find when we are open, TRULY open to all that may exist *out there* true miracles occur, they are daily, they are every where. Sometimes we need only calm/silence the chaos that sometimes may reside within, and thus blocking such occurrences, to see them and feel them. I know I try to not live my life asleep in the light. Metta.

sky
http://awolfadventure.blogspot.com

January 16, 2008 3:01 AM
Les Miserable  

Oh yeah...love this track...never heard it before. Been playing Leonard Cohen for years. Very cool. Bisous, Malkie, Paris.

January 16, 2008 6:05 PM
~* ♥ Fallen Angel ♥ *~  

@Les Miserable
I`m glad if you discovered something new and enjoyable on my blog :)

January 16, 2008 10:04 PM
Flowers On A Friday  

"...by the feeling of not belonging to the "here and now""

I think that's extremely well put.

At times it can be a comfort but mostly it draws attention to a thirst that can never be quenched.

January 16, 2008 11:27 PM
Mili3008  

It would be so nice if i could ever imagine that too.. i.e "imagine that my mom is still with me"... but am unable to do so... today it's been exactly 4yrs she left us. Donc 2d c une assez dure journee 4me..
Mais c'est tres beau ce que t'as ecrit.. vraiment!
Ciao ciao

January 19, 2008 9:45 AM

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